i came on top

May 2nd, 1998

2006-05-02T18:34:00.000+08:00

forever love.

Dearest Yuni,

2006-04-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

We love you, with all our hearts, or mine at least. And I'd hate to see you leave, but you must, I know. So bon voyage and all the best to your family, and yourself. Again, we love you.

p.s. That was a really sweet gesture.

Nigel,

2006-04-03T21:13:00.001+08:00

I think you are a nehneh, simply cuz u feel sad that u fuck up BlockTests. Clearly, this sadness due to fucking up proves that you betrayed me and studied like a dog when you shoulda been maxing Slants, Spirits, Pegs, and the like. Despite this, you are forgive for you have given me immense amusement when u were Sadboy Yee today in school.

Nigel,

2006-04-03T21:13:00.000+08:00

The Ballessness of ziwei

2006-03-09T19:35:00.000+08:00

Id ask you to write after you leave. but somehow, i just cant bring myself to do it.

with all its sham, drudgery and broekn dreams, perhaps its still a beautiful world.

Its Lent

2006-03-03T23:49:00.000+08:00

and i shall start by not doing something i like for forty days. and im not telling you what it is, dear reader. neh ne neh ne pu pu!

-inspired by a certain blogger, and a friend of a friend.

dear tablemate,

2006-02-14T20:40:00.000+08:00

when you come back this year, lets watch a movie. i think we used to watch movies together quite often. okay?

silent jealousy

2006-02-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

I just wanted to stay with you,
I just wanted to feel the breath of your grace.
I didn't know what to do,
I couldn't say anything.
When consciousness returned,
everything had been washed away by the tide, even you.
But the scars of memory never fade away.
I can't stop loving you,
stop my tears,
stop my loving,
kill my memories...

i think yoshiki is/was a depressed boy.

why the fuck did i waste my time man.

2006-01-17T01:38:00.000+08:00

for the record, this is the first time im blogging cuz/when im pissed off. fyi, it doesnt happen all that often.

impulse is all around.im sure you've felt it before. most of the time you realise that only when you're fucked cuz u did smth dumb. some of the lucky/unlucky ones might realise that while commiting the action.

Example

edmund climbs onto sally. while vigourously thrusting he realises that she has ulcers in her nose and swollen lymph glands. (yes, he's a voyuer even at that distance) holy fuck!, he thinks. then he begins to lose thought of the act, and focus more on the pros and cons. while all the time sally's moaning and oohing and whatevering.
our hero of the day, edmund, meanwhile cant decide whether to fucking run and take a cab home/NUH, or to just enjoy it. afterall he did decide against protection. yes i know most of you will freak out and flee and shout fuck and slap her, but theres a reason why edmund is termed hero so there. moving on, what shld our hero do? fuck and run or just run. its quite hard to decide really, afterall, its pretty orgasmic.

okay thats just a literal example. maybe a poor one but i was in the mood to talk shit so there. piss off if you dont like it. press close. no one cares about you dear. no one does.

the point is, should one act upon impulse, or to rationalise. sometimes u just cant decide man. then there're unforeseen factors as well. in edmunds case the midnight charge and fucking expensive fee of calling a cab. or dear sally might have even asked him to go up her behind eh? btw u get aids easier that way so please dont try it swollen lymph node motherfuckers.

you see the thing about impulses, such as lust. will always be impulses, not all of us are brother mike you know. hell even he has his cunt/cant and nazi war helmet nonsense. the thing about lust is how the fuck do you know if you've made the right choice. you cant just try can you, get aids how. nabei.

then there's people with pathetic technique. nabei. halfway throught you just wanna fucking go home. or worse, you'd just want that person to stop, you wldnt mind continuing. afterall, its not all abt coming eh? or is it.

even if it is all abt coming, what happens after you/yall come. lie in bed and pretend to sleep? for loving couples things come naturally, but what about people like edmund and sally? im sure all dear eddy wants to do is to go home. but u cant just leave after shooting your load eh? if any of you do please share your experiences. so what the fuck is one to do. oh, worse. sometimes the bed just sucks and u cant even pretend to sleep. you wanna fucking run away.

oh wait. there's also the issue of imagined love. for inexperience/emo fuckers, pardon the pun, the danger of imaginging love/mutual (non physical) affection/whatever is very real. if both imagine that and all turns out well, hey! excellent, you guys are one in a million (: but more often than not, its pretty much one sided. so now what, you ask. i dont know. there's nothing the self-deluded fucker can do, is there.

wait a minute, is it really self deluded, or is it result of centuries of literary lovebirds, romantic playwrights, sweet valley even, that associated love with sex. is it their fualt they fall in love while having sex? come on man, the stimulations are just so immense its hard isnt it. the social hype only makes things worse, plus if the fellow's a n00b and cant really control/compartmentalise what he feels, its not up to him is it.

from where i am, i think its hard. exp if the guy's never felt such stuff before, how's he to know what's what. you gotta keep your heart away from your dick/hole babeh. they're two seperate entities. keep that in mind and you'll go a long way (:

fuck its 2 in the morning. and i have to appeal for shit tmr.

2006-01-14T17:02:00.000+08:00

i think i kinda miss the times when i was in love. fuck.

2006-01-11T17:53:00.000+08:00

Desert rose / Why do you live alone /
If you are sad / I'll make you leave this life /
Are you white, blue or bloody red /
All I can see is drowning in cold grey sand

-Yoshiki

to all who loved art of life, id recommend viewing this

2005-12-26T20:52:00.000+08:00

there was a time when eugene wong was my tablemate
there was a time when damien drew 404ish comics
there was a time ~~when~~ sherman ong ~~was~~ hairy ears
there was a time when kevin chung didnt like me (now he sent me a christmas card, arent i georgeous)
there was a time when serene seow used to teach me us
now theres a hole in that ceiling. (i hope it stays that way forever)

then theres Mr Tung too. i respect the dude man. (for pointing __ at tim (: hahaha )

oh. there was a time whene eugene used to go fuck lanjiao nabei ect, now he's

*~mapother says:
i would appreciate if yo usto pswearing

ok i cant be bothered to continue.

dearest lunch-clique

2005-12-08T16:56:00.000+08:00

i think i am going to miss you people.

2005-12-07T13:17:00.000+08:00

You can't draw a picture of yesterday so you're painting your heart with your blood.
You can't say no, only turning the wheel of time with a rope around your neck.
You build a wall of morality and take a breath from between the bricks.
You make up imaginary enemies and are chased by them.
You're trying to commit suicide.
You're satisfied with your prologue, now you're painting your first chapter black.
You are putting the scraps of your life together and trying to make an asylum for yourself. You're hitting a hell at the edge of the stage and you are trying to kill me.

2005-12-01T09:12:00.000+08:00

i want an/many xjapan poster(s) for christmas.

2005-11-29T19:30:00.000+08:00

and wham. you fall in love.

2005-11-14T19:21:00.000+08:00

thats where i wanna be.

and i'll be there.

2005-11-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

jean lo is my new love. jean, if you ever come across this, drop a tag.

2005-11-04T22:10:00.000+08:00

im tired.

no this is not cryptic nonsense im just tired of every thing, i.e. you the reader(if any).

2005-10-01T02:50:00.000+08:00

fuck you.

2005-09-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

i miss the 190 days.

2005-09-10T17:06:00.000+08:00

whats the world coming to.

you know the world's different when thge best rapper is white, the best gofer is black, the tallest dude in nba is chinese, the swiss hold america's cup, france in accusing US of arragance (pre-katrina that is), germany doesnt want to go to war, and the 3 most powerful men in america are named bush dick and colon.

2005-08-26T19:54:00.000+08:00

inspired by nick hornby's high fidelity, i have decided that i want an artiste, prefably vocal, for a partner/girlfriend/boyfriend. then they can write their songs at home and ask me what i think abt it. and thank me in the thankyou section of their album. or maybe feature my photo in the sleeve jacket thingy. fucking georgeous baby.

2005-08-15T18:49:00.000+08:00

im damn handsome and hot. not to mention orgasmic.

ok i just felt like talking ~~crap~~

2005-08-11T22:31:00.000+08:00

yay. haha. after so long, its finally done. i think. ive learned a pretty fucking great deal. but more importantly. its done. haha. and theres this sense of relief. albeit mixed with a million other very different emotions. as the song goes, we were strangers startin out on a journey never dreamin we'd have to go through. the irony. woman! haha. (if yu dont get it its not my problem)

Despite all that ive said, given a choice i wouldnta gone thru it again. its just too. too like that. haha. it was fun at times, i must say. but at the end of it all, it was too much to bear. i felt stuff id never felt before, and no it wasnt all pleasant though some were fucking exhilarating, orgasmic even haha.

But at times i really wonder, whats beneath all that. is there anything real at all. call me insecure, or whatever fucking adjective u may think of, but i really wonder.
i guess life's unfair.

i am giving up on love cause it really kinda sucks
-the ataris

2005-08-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

maybe its the enthusiasm. maybe its the bubbliness. but they've made an impact on me. gave this feeling i havent felt in a long long time. really long. mika and misake, it was nice knowin yall. though i doubt either of you will ever read nor understand this. but thats really besides the point. well. whatever it is, all the best in your lives and grow up to be great women!

love,
ziwei/wywyy/emily's boyfriend

p.s. i'll miss yall.

i miss you.

2005-08-02T17:57:00.000+08:00

to see you when i wake up is a gift,
i didn't think could be real
to know that you feel the same as i do,
is a three-fold Utopian dream
you do something to me
that i can't explain, so would i be out of line,
if i said - i miss you.

i miss you --- incubus.

in more ways than baby.

2005-07-31T17:39:00.000+08:00

this world is filled with stubborn stupid people who think that they are fucking smart. when they are downright dumb. thing is, its not their fualt, only ppl they can blame are their mommys and daddys. for afterall, it was their sperm and egg and their fucked up brains. so, stupid people, i forgive you. (and myself, just to seem humble.)

2005-07-26T19:04:00.000+08:00

thankyou tablemate. i must admit im touched. to tears at that. (just a little bit u fucktards). but yea. haha. it was a fun two years.

as dmn put it pretty well, '404 wasnt a class. it was two years of my life.'

till me meet again then.

fuck lahh.

2005-07-15T14:56:00.000+08:00

fuck lahhh. just because some guy gets paid for running a charity organisation well, doesnt mean he has to be a charitable fuck you know. his org. has plenty of volunteers, but that doesnt mean he's one as well.

yea sure, he has had his oversights and inadequecies, not to mention escapades of fraud as well, but you cant say he didnt do his job well. thats not to say i know his job scope and stuff, but im pretty sure a CEO of a company, like everyone else, aims to make a living. and i think thats all he did.

2005-07-04T22:07:00.000+08:00

i think it felt good that night. that i could actually fall asleep comfortably in that position. i guess it was sweet to say the least. but as always, the alarm had to ring.

2005-06-30T22:22:00.000+08:00

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end

hell it might not even be real. but does it matter?

2005-06-21T04:04:00.000+08:00

leaving for kl in just over two hours. and when i come back its 3 days to common tests. funnily, i dont seem to quite give a fuck for now. instead, my mind's on matters such as nurfrogues aka miss danielle, or so s/he claims.
been a while since someone nice/intriguing/a lil bit inspiring/very nice to talk to came along. lets hope this one stays a little longer. though i really dont quite see how.

you're a girl after my own heart honey.

2005-06-08T20:09:00.000+08:00

popping by my blog, and realising that i last blogged a month ago, i decided, itd be nice to blog today. so there.

and damn you.

2005-05-08T20:26:00.000+08:00

Their anger hurts my ears
Been running strong for seven years
Rather than fix the problems, they never solve them
It makes no sense at all I see them every day
We get along so why can't they?
If this is what he wants, and it's what she wants,
Then why's there so much pain?

2005-05-01T12:02:00.000+08:00

maybe if my mom died the world would be a better place.

2005-04-07T19:46:00.000+08:00

The Time of Your Life

another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
so make the best of this test, and dont ask why
its not a question, but a lesson learned in time

its something unpredictable but in the end its right
i hope you had the time of your life

so take the photographs and still frames in your mind,
hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
tattoos and memories and dead skin on trial
for what its worth it was worth all the while

its something unpredictable, but in the end it's right
i hope you had the time of your life

i guess this goes out to the lost souls arnd me, ppl like mr zhou, kaiquan, and everyone else.
for what its worth, it was worth all the while.

mockery killed the bird.

2005-03-29T12:24:00.000+08:00

mockery killed the bird
who sang when she cried

lies sheltered inside
sing a lullaby and die

her heart was as heavy as stone
love and hate both weighed it down
none could make her come around

his love would kill her
but he wouldnt stop

so she threwherself from misery
and flew the ten floors to the ground

welcoming concrete and splashed blood
graffitied the white.

his love would kill her but he wouldnt stop
her pain suffocates

mockery killed the bird
it sang while she cried

2005-03-28T21:20:00.000+08:00

i feel like im abt to enter the most fucked up part of my life.

2005-03-26T11:56:00.000+08:00

if you have noticed
the many people who care as they stop to help instead of passing you by

if you have noticed
though the sun has set, it has risen again

if you have noticed
though troubles find you time and again, they leave you while friends dont

2005-03-15T15:17:00.000+08:00

my wounds will heal but my heart will not be hardened.

1t22.

2005-03-11T17:51:00.000+08:00

ten weeks, shou cang bu cang shou duan bu duan. haha lanjiao.

i feel like crying. it really sucks how ten weeks just fly by, i never thought id feel this way, that i'll miss certain individuals. like mr chain, mr zhou, mr kai, mr wu, mr suiren, mr yap wan shern, miss TJ, and probably a good number of others whom i cant remember off hand.

'do you see that sign over there? 'Edmund Chain and dogs not allowed'.' haha. yin hai's dumb qns, or his stuttering english. and edmund chain's so called witty shit. mr zhou's nonsense and lameness.

ima miss mr low also. and odac i guess. and the many familiar faces that i see all around. when ive nothing to do i can just go to the canteen or grandstand, and there's bound to be someone i know there. i guess that's cj for you.

i'll miss you fuckers. really, i will.

2005-03-11T17:20:00.000+08:00

fuck.

2005-02-26T15:49:00.000+08:00

Your Passion is Purple

Sophisticated and classy, you're a bit picky about sex.
You're more likely to be turned on by a fancy hotel room than a dirty flick.
Sex is fine enough, as long as it doesn't mess up your hair.
For you, sex is more about power and favors than actually pleasure.

What Color Is Your Passion?

heh.heh. (:

2005-02-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

i don't want you to go.

but it's come to this.

i hope you'll find your place,

i hope you'll be okay.

most of all,

i hope you'd be happy there.

2005-02-01T18:24:00.000+08:00

I MISS SJI. I MISS 2158. I MISS HO ZHENG AND SAMEUL THE TWO FUCKERS WHO MADE MISS MARA'S CLASS ENJOYABLE. ok. im glad i met them at campfire. and they did to me what i used to do to them. hahaha. fuck man. somehow that brought back memories. i havent done that in cj. i felt sad man, after leaving campfire that night.

2005-01-31T17:54:00.000+08:00

Love Cuts
by John Hegley

Love cuts
love juts out
and you walk right into it.

Love cuts
love comes and goes
love's a rose
first you smell the flower
then the thorn gets up your nostril
love gives you the chocolates
and then love gives you the chop
it doesn't like to linger.

Love cuts
love shuts up shop
and shuts it on your finger
love cuts
what isn't very nice is
love leaves you in slices.

Love cuts
love's very sharp
a harpoon through an easy chair
a comb of honey in your hair
just wait until the bees come home
and find you just relaxing there.

Love cuts
love's claws
evacuate that heart of yours
and leave it on the sleeve it wipes
its nose on.

Love cuts,
love guts the fish
of what you wish for
and leaves it in the airing cupboard.

Love cuts
love huts fall down
as all the walls get falser.

Love cuts
love struts around on stilts of balsa
wood love cuts gives you a sweeping bow
then ploughs a furrow deep above your eyebrow love cuts
love curtseys
then nuts you
where it really hurtseys.

2005-01-30T22:07:00.000+08:00

If you're feeling low and lost today
You're probably doing too much again
You spend all your hours just rushing around
Do you have a little time
Do you have a little time for me?
Slow down my love you're confusing me
If you're feeling stressed just try calling
You spend your time waiting for anyone to see
Do you have a little time
Do you have a little time for me?
If you should stop for a while
You will find me standing by
Over here at the side of your life
I'd like to hold you still, remind you of all you've missed
If you have a little time
If you have a little time that is

Why do you still run when you could walk with me
Life will pass you by when you move as quickly
What can you see when you're spinning around
Do you have a little time
Do you have a little time for me
If you should stop for a while
You will find me standing by
Over here at the side of your life
I like to hold you still, remind you of all you've missed
If you have a little time
If you have a little time that is

If you let me listen I'll make you feel clear
You spend your time waiting for anyone to see
If you should stop for a while
You will find me standing by
Over here at the side of your life
I'd like to hold you still, remind you of all you've missed
If you have a little time
If you have a little time that is
If you should stop for a while
You will find me standing by
Over here at the side of your life
I'd like to hold you still, remind you of all you've missed
If you have a little time
If you have a little time that is

there. all the not nice posts are far far below.

if you have a little time...

2005-01-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

you've got a fucking attitude problem man. and you are crazy.

2005-01-15T09:28:00.000+08:00

this entry has been deleted out of consideration for sean and lisa.

love,
ziwei.

2005-01-13T18:44:00.000+08:00

ben koh whatever the fuck the rest of his name is, is a stupid fat boy, whom i presume can play badmintion, but i cant really fanthom how he does it. he is full of shit, no, i dont mean it in a good way you fat fuck, and is very ugly. although the class still finds him okay now, its only because they havent really known him yet. most sji boys find him an irritating asshole, who has no dick (at lesat thats what i tihnk) so mr ben, stfu. (:

if u are offended, altthough i am not sorry at all, i really dont mean what i said, but i still think u are fat, ok, no, i know you are fat, but i think you are stupid.

2005-01-10T18:20:00.000+08:00

by popular demand, mr ziwei shall update his blog.

my class isnt all that bad, its pretty fine i guess. but school suck. longs days are fucked. and 1hr breaks means i eat alot and drink coke. which is fucked too. and pe isnt good, at leasti dont think it is, but ive to get fit. and ima join odac. which means i will get fit. and mr chiam is quite a nice guy. and t e s s a is pretty and cute as ever.

2005-01-03T18:43:00.000+08:00

i hope everyone in cj feels as sad about it as me. yes im a fucking pessimist i know.

2004-12-31T10:53:00.000+08:00

hello mother fuckers. its the new year. arent yall glad? _|_

fuck la. cjc is a fuck hole. and brother paul better gimme 4 subs if not i'll tickle his balls. hopefully odac is fun, byron koh better be nice to me. lanjiao.

ok. new year resolutions

have good orgasms.
qualify for s papers
take them
be a happy nehneh.

yar thats it. fuck you all.

2004-12-26T22:05:00.000+08:00

this christmas, gorgeous me received

a good number of stuff to stuff in my ear,
two shirts,
a pair of shoes of my chioce (but i really dont know whats nice).
a leather wallet and a pair of slippers. (ive yet to see em but they shld be beautiful and probably the best presesnts.)

Dover Beach

2004-12-16T17:46:00.000+08:00

Dover Beach
by Matthew Arnold

The sea is calm tonight.
The tide is full, the moon lies fair
Upon the straits; -on the French coast the light
Gleams and is gone; the cliffs of England stand,
Glimmering and vast, out in the tranquil bay.
Come to the window, sweet is the night air!
Only, from the long line of spray
Where the sea meets the moon-blanch'd land,
Listen! you hear the grating roar
Of pebbles which the waves draw back, and fling,
At their return, up the high strand,
Begin, and cease, and then again begin,
With tremulous cadence slow, and bring
The eternal note of sadness in.
Sophocles long ago
Heard it on the Aegean, and it brought
Into his mind the turbid ebb and flow
Of human misery; we
Find also in the sound a thought,
Hearing it by this distant northern sea.

The Sea of Faith
Was once, too, at the full, and round earth's shore
Lay like the folds of a bright girdle furl'd.
But now I only hear
Its melancholy, long, withdrawing roar,
Retreating, to the breath
Of the night-wind, down the vast edges drear
And naked shingles of the world.

Ah, love, let us be true
To one another! for the world, which seems
To lie before us like a land of dreams,
So various, so beautiful, so new,
Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,

Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain;
And we are here as on a darkling plain
Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
Where ignorant armies clash by night.

written in 1987 by Matthew Arnold, this poem continues to describe the world today where 'ignorant armies clash', where the world 'hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light' and our ideals of love are still very much the same. (:

2004-12-13T01:41:00.000+08:00

went out with anne and subhash! anne very nice. haha. too bad shes a new zealander and has to go back on january 26th. and i dont have her fucking no. haha. shit. ok. i pray subhash never reads this haha. anyway. shes a fucking nice new zealander whos well..older than me hahaha (17) and who offered to pay for me ride on that whatever thingy opp borders. and she liked my pink shirt! haha. too bad shes going back to nz. bleah. haha.

2004-12-06T01:18:00.000+08:00

Could one be ruined for love? Is that possible? That life's love has already come and gone, leaving you somehow jaded or condemned to seek heights of love never again to be realized. I just couldnt imagine it. I could not accept a world where such a notion was possible. That id had my chance the the rest was just second best at best.

-Stephan Jaramillo, The Scoundrel

2004-12-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

yay im getting a queen sized bed in january. its a good sign. may cjc be a nice place!

2004-12-04T23:14:00.000+08:00

haha. fuck. my plan has failed. lets just hope im not back to square one again. but i fear a part of me already is.

you cant just say fuck it and walk away. things have a way of coming back to you. to fuck you up pretty badly again. that's pretty okay if you can face up to things and kick em in the face, but some things just cant be settled like that. haha. fuck you god. why didja have to put such shite into people's lives.

and i'll admit it, to myself that is. i guess im really not in love with the idea of being in love as ive often thought of myself as. in fact, i quite believe im still pretty much in love with you. haha. fuck man this blows. but yeas. argh. haha.

playing ps and sg all day works. so does playing with the boys and acting gay with claudio at mos. but only for a while i guess. haha. yes and i do miss certain things.

haha. wells. okay. here ends one of the most..real blog entries of mine. haha.

*with all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams...*

2004-12-04T11:19:00.000+08:00

somehow. my dad knew i reached home at 430 haha. and he seemed cool with it so no problem. mos sucks no one shld ever go there. fuck u claudio and fuck u laosy taxi driver.

ok. but it was funny getting that girl to dance with claudio, though she looks 50x worse than ong mei fen. and there's no ringing sound in my ears. very good.

and i love the night rider.

2004-12-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

dearest weisin. thank you for getting the lovers seat you fuck face
hahas. anyways, bridget jones diary was rather good. was rather sweet, and full of shite most definately.

yay. i hope all goes well tmr and everyone turns up haha. and may i have plenty of cash to buy all the clothes and stuff i want. you shits can buy em for me too.

*if you dont give a shit you get alot furthur.*

p.s fuck.

merry christmas everybody.

2004-11-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

karen pooh you are an irritating fuck i hope you get banged by smth when yur crossing the road man.

2004-11-20T21:07:00.000+08:00

All my friends either voted for Yeltsin, sighing and chanting the sacred phrases, or, overcome by apathy or revulsion, didn't vote at all. I asked everyone, "Why not vote for Gorbachev?" "He doesn't have a chance," was the answer. "I would, but others won't, and Zyuganov will be elected as a result," some said. This, at least, was a pragmatic approach. But it turns out that there were 1.5 million dreamers, people who hadn't forgotten that bright if short period of time when the chains fell one after another, when every day brought greater freedom and hope, when life acquired meaning and prospects, when, it even seemed, people loved one another and felt that a general reconciliation was possible.

-Tatyana Tolstaya

yay

2004-11-20T02:44:00.000+08:00

yay haha. today very fun. and christmas card shopping was a total failure. haha. and chem can suck shit and die.

friday imin love

2004-11-16T21:09:00.000+08:00

Friday Im In Love - The Cure

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday, I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday, I'm in love

Saturday, wait
Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitates

I don't care if Monday's black
Tuesday, Wednesday heart attack
Thursday, never looking back
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday you can hold your head
Tuesday, Wednesday stay in bed
Oh Thursday watch the walls instead
It's Friday, I'm in love

Saturday, wait
Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitates

Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
As sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's Friday, I'm in love

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday, I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday, I'm in love

yay friday friday friday.

2004-11-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

fuck you you shit.

2004-11-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

whenever you say things like that it makes me feel shitty.

* http://www.un.org/Depts/dda/WMD/treaty/ *

2004-10-29T21:43:00.000+08:00

it is 37 degress celsius in wongziwei's head. fuck.

"press r1 r2 l1 x up down left right for full healt and armour"
-Damien Yeo, bloody lame ass.

2004-10-15T21:50:00.000+08:00

rejoice josephians. rejoice. rejoice.

2004-10-15T18:55:00.000+08:00

'ziwei. ever so...indifferent..,'

or so serene seow says when she pinned the sji thingy on my collar. and hugged me. :) (ok. she hugged everyone)

what kind of comment is that man. is she takin a dig at me cuz i said everything abt her photo was nice except her face? if u ever read this, mrs ss, i really didnt mean that. haha. okay i did. but i really dont think yur very photogenic. thats not to say yur not pretty in person though.

anyway. today i realised what i missed, or am going to miss, most abt sji is her teachers. when j liew went thru the class tutors one by one. i wanted to cry. okay. my eyes got wet. but no one else was crying so i ~~couldnt~~ decided not to cry haha.
yar well. anyway. i think what matters most to me, abt sji, is the teachers. ppl like. serene seow! alvin chua, lao nu ren (tts lao shi btw), tan choy ping, tung. all mean a fair bit to me. i dont how to describe it, but tts not to say such feelings dont exist.

and. tts not to say my friends and all mean nth. they do, really. but we can always meet up and all i guess. yes, we'll not be able to do all those stupid things. like throwing that fuck god super big stack of newpaper arnd. stomping on 08's ceiling. flossing the (other) eugene wong. (10c per pull haha.) and all sorts of other rubbish. We probably wouldnt have the chance to do such shite anymore in the future. firstly, there'll be girls. and i do believe tt ppl become more restrained when such creatures are arnd. and we'd outgrow it. actually, i quite doubt tt second point but yea..

oh. and i'll miss j liew. the fucker who has a fetish for dicks. and all sorts of shite. once when some fellow wanted to come in to get his bks, and asked for permission. tt bitch replied with, 'lanjiao. go la.' i wonder what'll happen if he becomes HOL 1. haha.

anyway. i'll miss all of you teachers, and some classmates. mrs serene seow especially haha. cuz i'll probably never see her again.

~The O levels is a masturbatory affiar. It's very personal~

-Jeremy Liew, HOL4 2004, St Joseph's Institution

serene seow.

2004-10-14T14:40:00.000+08:00

ive decided not to edit that entry. haha.
anyways.

i felt sad when serene seow said she was leaving, not tt i didnt know prior to tt but ya. and when i realised she wouldnt be giving us our results next yr. haha. bah.

oh shit.

2004-10-12T18:41:00.001+08:00

oh shit. dearest serene seow is leaving sji with us. tts not fun at all. haha.

oh shit.

2004-10-12T18:41:00.000+08:00

wywyy

2004-10-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

dearest wywyy is tired. tired of everything. what shall he do?

i think he wants to die. haha.

cjc

2004-10-04T15:58:00.000+08:00

hello cjc. haha. fuck.

dear mrs seow

2004-10-03T01:13:00.000+08:00

dear mrs serene seow,
if somehow you ever read this shite. i really hope you, to some extent at least, meant what you said today on stage. cuz it really feels as if you said it for the sake of saying it. it seemed really insincere. at least thats what i think. it was almost as if you said it to make ppl laugh tt kinda thing.

the other teachers meant it. you can tell. from their smile, their tears. yes mam they did cry according to some ppl. i dont mean to compare..but. its quite inevitable isnt it? yes, comparing is bad and all, but it's smth that happens aint it?

okay. im sorry. haha. maybe u did mean it. but its not in your nature to show it so..explicitly. haha. anyway. i think yur hot. and today, you and yur stupid fan haha. plain amusing man. haha. okay. end of my story. thankew mrs seow for being out wonderful, liberal form tutor for 2 years.

william parish. death and taxes.

2004-09-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.

-William Parish

wassup fuckers?
we all need some l u r v e baby. l u r ve.

tata fuckers. happy lurving.

tata.

love,
the orgasmic fish.

i love you all bitches! and butches and faggots and fuck all.

j o s ep h s

2004-09-15T19:41:00.000+08:00

josephian. im proud to be one. are you? if yur not a josephian, piss off. haha. this aint for you.

i believe all independent schs are more or less the same, well ri and rg dont count. and the top few too. but yea. for everythings else, they're the same. at least academically.

so what's the difference? emotional development. at least tts wod i think.
and for that, sji's the best. like really man. rme is useful. better than civics or morals or wodever shit sounds so propagandaish. and sji's habit of prayer and all, though i aint catholic or wodever, but i believe in them.

the way the squashers prayed at the kallang courts before each match. ya it looks weird, but it says smth abt us. says alot.

and the teachers here are nice, in every sense of the word. im not saying teachers elsewhere suck, they're probably equally as nice if not nicer, but, i dont know for sure do i? even serene seow is nice la, she gave eugene wong brands essence. and never gimme. bitch. and tts besides the point.

and alvin chua. he really really cared. and bothered.
furthurmore, he gave some bank job to teach. like what the fuck, too rich ah? but again, it says smth. he gave time to 2e4, 1e4, he taugh me wod sonnfabitch meant haha tt was funny. he took time out to teach us how to talk with our hands, or rather, sing. im sure we'd all cherish tt wont be 1e4? haha.

and he actually gave a fuck abt fights. haha. i mean..they're like so common. who doesnt fight right?...right? haha.

and the pple are nicer. fuckers like shaun tan, the eugene wongs, mark tay, and many others. tingguan and his cute sister haha. ok she's abit old but doesnt matter.

oh oh. and brother mike. i love his talks. really. bet everyone enjoys them ya? unless he's speaking to you one to one then maybe you'd wanna die.

and the chapel is gorgeous. ive been there like er..3 times in my 3 1/2 years. haha. but yea. and the LT. it feels special. maybe cuz there's a part of de la salle, his shirt, and his coffin there. yes. creepy i know. oh. and cemetry. and pac. ah. yes. suffian. that fucker. 2 yrs older than me.

though i rarely talk to him, i met when i was pri 1 man. haha. he was the prefect i/c of my class. then when i went to sji, he was the psl tt ushered me to the pac. tt day in december. haha. funny man. and he remembers me haha. i guess that last point mattered the most. its been like...ten yrs? god.haha. suffian, if u ever read this, say hi. haha.

hm yeas. sji. i love you haha. in more ways than one.

i'll miss sji. more than i ever think i will. i think.

~rejoice josephians, rejoice rejoice! sons of de la salle. ~

hello everybody

2004-09-15T14:39:00.000+08:00

wassup fuckers?
exams fun?

im such a bitch. i didnt study at all and go sch get drenched in the fucking rain tt lasted for tt 10 i was walking to sch frm the bus stop. and have half the sec4s stare at me as in waltz into the canteen drenched. like what the fuck. adn then i go and laugh at the fuckers viciously studying.

anyways.

to all you mother fuckers who revise 10min before the paper during the break, and those who gan cheong in the canteen 30min before the exam. FUCK YOU. there's seriously no need for it man. its better to relax, enjoy the exam. esp papers like a math and e math and...fuck else.

the only exception

is 2158. its the worst paper in the world and fucks with your brain. im not trying to be a whiny fuck who says im taking the worst subj so everyone shld pity me, but it really is the worst subj. ask anyone. and they'd tell u how fucking happy they are when the exam's over. even if they're gonna fail. you're just so fucking glad the thing's over.

to all the mother fuckers who're taking 2158 this year. good luck. yea, you included junghans. fucker.

Kat's Poem

2004-09-10T22:46:00.000+08:00

i hate the way you talk to me
and the way you cut your hair

i hate the way you drive my car
i hate it when you stare

i hate it your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind

i hate you so much it makes me sick -
it even makes me rhyme

i hate the way you're always right
i hate it when you lie

i hate it wen you make me laugh -
even worse when you make me cry

i hate it that you're not around
and the fact that you didnt call

but mostly i hate the way i dont hate you -
not even close, not even a little bit, not any at all

- Ten Things I Hate About You, Kat's Poem

great romance

2004-09-09T17:43:00.000+08:00

a beautiful girl can make you dizzy, like youve been drinkin jack and cocke all morning
she can make you feel high, fill a single greatest commodity know to man:promise; promise of a new tomorrow
this particular aura can be found in the gate of a beautiful girl:in her smile, and in her soul and the way she makes every rotten little thing abt life seem like it's gonna be okay

-Great Romance, Taking Back Sunday

you.

2004-09-09T14:09:00.000+08:00

hope. dangles on a string like slow spinning redemption
winding in and winding out
the shine of it
has caught my eye.

hope is powerful thing isnt it?
it drives people man. the hope of being sucessful, the hope that this girl will take a fancy to you.
the hope that you might win 4d, though its one in a 10 million or whatever. the hope that you can survive this cancer. the hope that yu can get out of the gulag. the hope that tomorrow will be a better day.

actually, isnt life all about hope? if you knew your future, the element of mystery, of hope, is gone.
maybe that's why people end their lives. they dont see the light at the end of the tunnel. they dont know what they're living for. there's just no point in living. nothing to hope for.

hope.dangles on a string
like slow spinning redemption
winding in and winding out
the shine of it
has caught my eye

~but id go through hell for you and i havent been this scared in a long time. and im so unprepaared so here's your valentine. bouquet of clumsy words and a simple melody.

this world's an ugly place.

buy you're so beautiful to me~

-Going away to college, Blink 182

2am

2004-09-07T02:25:00.000+08:00

its cold at 2 in the morning man. went for a walk. haha. couldnt sleep. darn coffee. and i dowan to study bio. fucking nerves. literally.

anyways.

its cold man. tts the first thing i felt. then, the uncanny silence hit me. ok. uncanny's a bad word. i like the silence actually. the lack of cars zooming by, or people walking by. adds to the revered peace. yes peace. smth, to me, that's so hard to achieve, so hard to find. but hey, it comes every night.
alas! we're all asleep. actually, thats why its peaceful. darn those taxi drivers who zoom by almost 1 a minute.

but well. my point is. haha. i like the streets at 2 am. or the area arnd my hse at least. peace.

~i wish you bluebirds in the spring, to give your heart a song to sing. And then a kiss, but more than this, i wish you love.~
- I Wish You Love, Frank Sinatra

sji

2004-09-01T18:39:00.000+08:00

St Joseph Institution. SJI. My second choice. I was sad. with my psle score.

but i am proud to say that not once, did i regret coming to sji. i never thought i'll miss sji.
never ever man.
until i looked at the birthday card 1e4 gave me. and wod alvin chua (boon hwee haha) wrote. 'hope you'll enjoy and make good use of your time in sji' or smth along those lines.

It was three years ago that i received that man. so fast. haha. still remember. went to play lan on my sec1 birthday. with some of those 1e4 ppl. and i didnt know wod to tell boon hwee when he asked how i spent my birthday. haha. yes. sad. i know.

I still remember how alvin chua cried in class that day. He's the best form tutor i ever had i think.
serene seows sucks cock la. she doesnt care at all. but yea. tts besides the point.
back to boon hwee. ha. i remember the way he told me wod sonnafa bitch meant. haha. and how he liked to make us write letters. or essays. but yea..what mattered most was that he cared. he bothered. i guess that's what makes a good teacher. people will feel that he or she cares.

just dawned on me that in abt a month i'll be leaving sji. that bell in the hall will ring again for me, for us. didnt seem too long ago when nathan was pulling it and we were little short pants kids sitting in the hall. wasnt too long ago that shaun tan was in love with lorraine lim. haha. well. time files. things chage. ppl change. ppl drift.

all the best to..all of us. haha. whoever we are.

studying sucks cock.

2004-08-25T22:35:00.000+08:00

i love stalin, brezhnew, gorbachev, mao, deng, yeltsin, hitler, mussolini, treaty of versailles, league of nations, cold war, detente. and xylem, pholem, choroid, blind spot, renal arteries, hypothalamus, osmosis, pedicels. and sri lankans, tamil tigers, northern ireland, and fuck all.

i hate you. and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you.
i love julia stiles. we should all watch bourne supremacy. and we should all love her too. but i love her the most.

*hope dangles on a string, like slow spinning redemption. winding in and winding out, the shine of it has caught my eye. roped me in so mesmerising so hyponotising i am captivated i am...*

rain

2004-08-20T15:57:00.000+08:00

rains are gorgeous. except those without any wind. hot like shite. and the humidity. but ya. rains are gorgeous nevertheless

i love splashing in the puddles. especially if you've got new holeless shoes so u can splash all u want and your feet'd still be dry. and splashing of a friday really helps. cuz yu dont need the shoes the next day.

and the wind is beautiful.albeit cold. it should rain everyday man.

*listen to the rhythm of the falling rain telling me just what a fool ive been*

P.S who wants to join ~~clara chow~~ julia stiles fan club?

:D

2004-08-17T15:33:00.000+08:00

~~louisa lee~~
clara chow
serene seow
~~Liang Pei~~

:D

*How come we don't even talk no more

And you don't even call no more

We don't barely keep in touch at all

And I don't even feel the same love when we hug no more *

-How Come, D12

A2

2004-08-12T18:41:00.000+08:00

A2 is the worst grade possible. it means to say yur good, but not good enough. in other words you're a loser.

There are two ways someone can get an A2 at O lvls.
either be really stupid, so no matter how u study you still can get a two.
or be really stupid by not studying, despite your gray matter.

and examinations should not be set such that they can be studied for, thats stupid. in this day and age where infomation can so freely be obtained, the true test of ability is that of applying infomation.
however, i must admit, that a certain amount of knowledge must be obtained before one can properly apply knowledge. i guess, the O levels is where part of that certain amount of knowledge is obtained.

I therefore concluded, that as long as you take the effort to study, you can get 6 for Os. anyone can.
A2s suck cock.

*they say you dont win the silver, you lose the gold*

Hero's

2004-07-29T20:34:00.000+08:00

Mikhail Sergeyevich Gorbachev. The man who gave Russians freedom. The man who freed Eastern Europe from the Red Terror. The man who stood up for what he believed in. The man who caused the fall of the USSR, the fall of totalitarianism in the USSR. The man who faced the anger of the very people he gave freedom to.

Stupid? Maybe, just maybe, in a way. But in another sense, he did what was he felt was right. He'd rather let the eastern European states achieve freedom, than send in tanks to crush their balls. He fog's hard to give the Russians political freedom.

What's the big deal in that you ask.

Well. Being king of the USSR, he was one powerful dick. Did he abuse tt? no! He didnt kill Russians like your murder the ants in yur sugar jar. Instead, he freed them. Did he wack the baltics cuz they wanted to be free? no! Instead he gave them freedom, limited at first but freedom nonetheless. He did what he thought was right, despite huge amounts of power in his hands.His policeis of glasnost and perestroika indoubtedly led to irreversible changes in the USSR. People learned that they could be angry; learned that they could fight for what they felt was unfair;learned that there was more to life than hunger and fear. for the first time in almost a century, the Russian people could feel, could openly feel. something we all take for granted.

He, my friend, is a true hero. One who excerises responsibility and righteousness even when things screw up. He's the true peter parker. a real, living hero.

I would even go to the extent to say that he saved to world.The cold war coulda killed us all, low possibility, but possible nonetheless. The ending of the cold war's largely credited to him. He established positive relations almost immediately, and voluntarily disarmed russia. How many people would be willing to do that? to know that your enemy has more arms than you, and yet disarm voluntarily. Its not easy. but he did it.

Alas, nothing gold can stay haha. the russian people bit the hand that fed it. but he was, or rather, is, a hero nonetheless. The hero of the world.

~with great power, comes great responsibility~

track and field finals. :D

2004-07-28T22:41:00.000+08:00

the rain was fun. initially it bloody sucked. gave me, or us, tt damn shitty feeling. like having a campa and yur silly tent gets flooded. but after i got all drenched, and fuck cared, it became more fun. went arnd getting ppl to get out of their ponchos and umbrellas and get wet with me :D

~fuck the kisses, they didnt mean jack~

they will always remember the bad.

2004-07-22T21:51:00.000+08:00

people will always remember the bad. is it true? not for me. but thats really not the point. in this world of 6 000 000 000, i hardly matter,for now. so yea.

will you remember when the fellow sitting next to you told yu to piss off, or will you remember when he gave a really big grin when u thanked him for someting?

i guess it depends. it depends on who the person is. if its serene seow, of cuz i'll remember the piss off. and hate her forever, even though i think she has a nice torso. haha. but if it was someone like erm.. magdalen ng, id remember the nice stuff. why? ive no idea. maybe, its cuz i dont know serene seow on a personal level (sitting her car, though nice, doesnt count).

yes, i think thats it. if yur close to someone, you'd remember all the nice nice stuff, cuz there'd probably be more nice stuff than fucked up shit. if it was the other way round you wuldnt be close at all. thats leads us to...impressions. or rather first impressions. yes, they matter. a bit or alot, it differs from person to person i guess. think tts kinda screwed. impressions are fucked up stuff man.

they block off yur mind, they seal you off. they destroy your options. they take someone's chances away. where da hell did this screwed idea come from man

"thats why..cannot stereotype. cannot judge a book by its cover"
~serene seow

buncha fucks

2004-07-21T17:50:00.000+08:00

the worlds made upa bunches of fucks. its really quite screwed no matter how you look at it. those volunteers all over the world trying to make a difference. trying to change it. will they succeed? no. not unless everyone truely wants to make a difference, +ve difference tt is. but due to the fucked up fact tt we are humans, this is highly improbable. not impossible, but improbable.
therefore, i suggest, we all stop being selfish fuckers. that way, no one will lose out. cuz no one will be doing anything that fucks up the world, everyone is trying to make a positive difference. but then, another problem arises.

Man is greedy. Man wants to come again and again, man wants to eat lotsa nice food, man wants to have big houses. Man is screwed. How'd we fix that? ive no fucking idea. does it have to be fixed?

~its alright, its okay, i think god can explain~